Living with the scars of personal crisis marked me as dysfunctional. A chronic condition I have dealt with for far too many years. I am very people oriented and like to be outgoing. So, why the difficulties you might think? Beats me but it seems to follow my life, lurking like a dark cloud in a bright sky. In part, I have had to observe objectively, to draw my own understanding of why my marks of ownership to God are so deeply outlined in black. But the processes in which God took my personal journey through concluded when I took control of my life under the protection of word of God. It began through a study with some wonderful women God so graciously brought into my life, at His appointed time because He sees us…in real time. His love rescued me and showed me He is interested in what is going on in my life…still. He also knows that I am a very, very private person. God understands the dynamics of becoming too comfortable or complacent to our condition. It is usually about that time, He will “shake” things up to get our attention to show that He is uncompromising. He wants His best for us. He has a plan to bless each of our lives, it’s ours for the taking but it requires our obedience.
So, through the months of studying the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyers, God began to have His Way in my mind, spirit and body. Before that…it had been my way…which had been living with the deep scars of dysfunctional thinking. That is where God began to deepen my new friendships, born through our sharing of His word in our book study. That was just the beginning of the path He had planned. I had spent over a year getting into better eating habits and exercise. My all around well being was at a better place than it had been for quite awhile. God had shown that He will walk through my valleys and will bring the good things to pass; as I continued to be focused and press through to each milestone He guided me to reach.
One thing that God did for me through this personal journey of renewing my mind was bringing me a new name…Zoey, a gift brought to me through Jenni, upon our first meeting. In writing this today, I realize that many who have followed over these many months might be surprised at this announcement. I do apologize. I can tell you that I put it (Zoey) to the test on all levels – Spiritually, emotionally and of course, intellectually. On three very random occasions, God would have the name Zoey mentioned (by divine appointment) to confirm that it was His new name for me.
Remember I told you I am a very private person? I don’t like the internet because of the cyber bullying and identity theft. Also, I am a people person. I like to interact face to face, see you and hear your voice. But God had it planned to begin this ministry and it began with giving me a new name, thus the name Zoey was His gift to me. The name means LIFE and it remains the TRUTH in me that brought a NEWNESS of LIFE in serving Jesus. A renewing of my life in a spiritual walk that I will never turn away from and will look towards till I am taken to heaven to be with Him in His Glory.
Even with the best of intentions, inevitably family, friends and coworkers, will impose their own values and interpretations. God had me come apart for a time, in order to find peace with my past and understand that my identity is not in what or who people say that I am. It is in who God says belongs to Him and through His Son alone…I am his Zoe daughter…His Life in me!
After much prayer, I have decided to write my story for my tribute to our ministry at Tapestry Treasures. It truly was the hand of God, weaving the Word and everyday life experiences that brought our team together. We continue because of the Holy Spirit inspiring us and in turn, we write to share our hearts with you. In unity with Him.