Something happened on my way to…

A year and a half ago I was at work like any other morning. I do the job I do and love it. I remind myself on hard days to love them like Jesus and that keeps me keeping on. I do home nursing for people that most people stay clear of. I love my people. I have days where we celebrate because I taught a man to write his name and I have days where I say that over and over and over in my head..”love em like Jesus!” I try to live the life of the good Samaritan everyday. I know y’all know the story of the Good Samaritan. So this fall morning I was acting out of love and compassion. My person was unsteady and started to teader. Very unsteady. Patient could hit cement floor or the metal door frame head on. As someone who works sometimes in the ER and a lover of Jesus I tried to lessen the impact and guide the patient down my body to the floor. The weight caused they called a football injury in my knee. After doing first aid I crawled up the stairs to get help.
I have had 5 knee surgeries and has left me with a permanent disability. I spent over a year with doctor once every two weeks, surgeon every three months, physiotherapy 5 days a week and exercise rehab. This moment and time changed my life. I have been asked by every doctor and government official if I would redo it or change it and I say the same thing. No! I was loving them like Jesus. I may never run a marathon but I can run to Jesus. I may never be a nurse or perform nursing duties but I know all this is a part of Gods plan and shall be used for good. God is so good. Today I went into meet a dean at a techi school because now I will have to have a desk job. And by the time I left they offered me a job and asked me what I would need to work for them. I know this much is true that if you want to make God laugh make a plan. Maybe I became a nurse to help people and wear scrubs but God allowed it to save a mans life and to provide my mother in law her final days of care. So something happened on my way to school. God showed me that He has other plans for me, trust in Him, that he never wastes a hurt and that above all if you stay in His light and walk the walk you will always be cared for and it will all work out for His glory. Thank you Father God for my abilities and for your teachings for the good book that keeps me very real in a very unreal world. And that’s my story.


Healthy homemaker is back!!!

Good Morning friends of faith. I would like to tell my faith and fitness journey. I started out 260lbs and at 5’4 that’s a lot for one lil girl to carry. I started where I was and never took no for an answer. I crawled at 6 am to put on my runners and walked into the gym and then ran home to my family. I have learnt lots about forgiveness, love, mercy and grace. It was not easy and there were day I didn’t want to do it. It is easy to slip on the slippery slop of sin then to stand Jesus strong and persevere. People think of it was easy. NO IT WAS NOT and still is not. You make choices ( thank you Lord for this blessing and at times a curse) but must always live by the repercussions of them. So I say every step is a step. Take it move and do it all for Gods glory. He does care about your physical health. The reason being is the longer you are fit and on this earth YOU can spread His good word.


Our God is an awesome God!

I don’t believe in coincidence but I do believe in God-incidences. Tonight after a very hard day of hearing my life won’t return as I know it after a work injury over a year ago. I was asked to go to a aquafit class. As you know I am a health champion. The Lord had called me to do this. I didn’t want to be and was a very defiant child and told Him no over and over again. I see our father giggling and saying but yes! I believe our father has not only a loving nature but a great sense of humour. Want to make Him laugh make a plan. So back to tonight. I was asked by a woman I don’t even know and know she needs the support and encouragement. So I went. First I saw someone I didn’t want to see. One of my old supervisors. But then I worked out to the best of my new abilities side by side with this girl. Sharing , talking and working. That was not sweat but my Jesus light shining. She got a glimpse of Jesus. That makes me so happy. I am nothing without Him so if I can share Jesus and health and wellness I am excited. I then saw a friend from church discussed what the therapist and surgeon had said ( he is in the same field ). God placed him in my path. Feeling a little defeated God showed up. We talked and he prayed and I had a calmness about the day. Across the pool I see a girl absolutely beautiful with a younger girl. Have my shower and come out they are on the bench by my locker. God incidence here we come.. She says I am sorry your hair smells beautiful what do you use. I laugh and say something natural coconut. Her daughter starts talking to me and then she mentions church. The Lord says do and in the past I have argued, pouted and ignored Him. But I am no longer a child I obey. I start in with what church. Then we get to talking next thing you know we are pouring out our very similar lives. He says guide and use your mess for a message. I told her of a class I lead and others I counsel on health and wellness. She has struggled a long time with this. I told her it’s simple. 1) crave Jesus 2) believe in God power not will power and you will succeed. I have offered to help her. Was it comfortable ? No. God is awesome when He calls listen. You may think your under qualified but with God the maker of heaven and earth you CAN do anything. Allow yourself to be interrupted for God. He is awesome and His plans are far better then we can comprehend.


White noise

Jesus , I want you to be more then the cross I wear .I have existed without you but was not alive. You fill me and are with me always. I was broken and you said my child. I am so grateful that everyday I meet you and walk with you. Lord you are welcome here everyday and every way fill my heart. I want to always be aware of your presence. I am but a cracked pot I which your light shines through me. Thank you


Start where you are

As you may know I am a girl who has lost 100lbs but not on my own. I believe that spiritual growth is so important when you want to overcome. I am a overcomer because I put my faith, hope and trust In The Lord. Thank you Jesus for growing me for using me to teach, coach and help others. I have looked at this struggle and whined, cursed and hated myself. But through God I am free, beautiful and blessed. If you are struggling with an addiction look no further then the word. It will fill you, restore and redeem you. Start where you are!


Joy doesn’t come in a package

Today I open my email and have a email from a box store promoting a stuffed toy that will bring your child joy. Below is says don’t you want to bring them joy. First as a Christ follower my head and heart screams NO! Joy does not come from a toy it’s from within. The joy you know from Christ is amazing and it’s a gift. But ultimately that choice is yours. You can choose to believe and follow. You yourself have many choices to make not all are easy. I lead a few classes on this with food and God. Hence why I created the page called “the healthy homemaker” . Choices are not always easy and choosing to follow Jesus not consumerism in a day where people are afraid to say merry Christmas can be done but you must stand firm in your beliefs. Secondly I don’t want or need the guilt about their happiness cause ultimately that’s their choice. They can choose joy, they can choose to rise above any circumstance and all I can do is be a living role model. Third to the “box store” all those gifts that provide a temporary joy will end up in the recycling bin and knowing Jesus will be eternal. Sorry for my rant. Knowing Jesus is a choice .Loving Jesus another and following another. It’s the season. Do you miss the good old days? I do. Merry CHRISTmas


To do list

A thought came to mind this as the holiday season approaches me. If you are tired, overwhelmed and feel there is just enough hours in the day then you are doing way more then God intended. I am reminded that to give what you need most of and God will rejuvenate you. We are called to serve, minister and love one another BUT we are also told to rest.



Who controls you? Lets talk forgiveness. I was 5  years old when my brother tried to molest me. I forgave my brother but before you send many replies about how could you, I want you to know Jesus loves me and he has pursued me much longer then I deserved to be pursued. I am forgiven therefore I forgive. Forgiving is not easy it actually take much more courage then most people have. I walk in freedom because I let that go and no longer have to carry that burden. Its at the cross and God can take it. I don’t have to be a victim because in Gods light I am victorious. Saying you forgive does not mean you need to forget. Forgiving the wrong does not excuse the pain but it does mean you walk in grace and choose a higher road. Now I am sure that God wept that day and maybe that’s why He fought so hard for me. I am a chosen child of our Father. I am thankful I can walk in grace and forgive. I am thankful for the free will He has given us. There a lot of people thirsty for love and looking in all sorts of places. But I can tell you the only way to quench your thirst is not in the bottom of a bottle, in drugs, sex or food…it is in the Living Water. With that water running through me I am able to forgive not just seven times but many more. I have the ability to go to the only source I need and say I am here Father…take me where you need me to go, have me see what you see, hear what you hear and have a heart to receive.

If your a survivor of abuse I urge you to take it to the cross. For man may hurt you God’s arms are waiting and you can leave all that at the cross and be victorious.



Losses and gains

As I am riding my bike in my gym I am thinking about losses and gains. I lead a faith and fitness class at my church. I am on the crunch time. Time to get my ducks in a row for my next group. I am stressing ,mulling numbers, schedules and and every little detail. Yes I have lost 100 lbs but that’s not the loss I am stressing about. I am stressing that these people will lose touch with what is most important their gain which is a much closer walk with God. I don’t believe in will power I believe in God power because with Him all things are possible. I pray my new group will honour their earthly bodies God has given them. That they will walk to Him instead of the easy fix the fridge. That they will take their hurts and hang up to the cross and I am able to lead them to a closet walk with our Father … Now that’s my gain.
Former model note here I was never more beautiful and complete until I stated to follow Jesus.

You may not be able BUT GOD can!


Love grows best in soft soil.

Ezekiel 36:26

Be encouraged! It is so easy to hold a grudge. To stay angry and not put the effort in. I love my house plants and let me tell you they grow! There is effort in their care. My kids call them my babies. I can take a seed and bam 6 months later it is a small tree. I hope my children see this time and effort and apply it in other areas of their lives ( A Momma needs to get creative when ministering to her young)  I relearn daily to have soft soil.  How can we grow anything worth while in hard stubborn ground. I take the time and effort in many areas of my life sometimes I am spread thin. But I want my family to know Jesus. I am saved and I am grateful. I will spend my days spreading the good word of His love and what The Lord has done in my life.  At the end of my time in this earthly body that people say she emanated grace. 


A  note: I have a sister Susan whom I love with all my heart and I have softened my soil to her. I pray daily that She will know the Lord and that he would work a miracle in her life and her soils will soften. There has not been one word spoken to me in 4 years.  Love out loud and pray hard!