Envy and Jealousy: The Green Eyed [Twin] Monsters that (can) live in our Hearts

ENVY: noun \ˈen-vē\

: the feeling of wanting to have what someone else has

: someone or something that causes envy

covetousnessenviousnessgreen-eyed monsterinvidiousness,jealousyresentment

: to feel a desire to have what someone else has : to feel envy because of (someone or something)

Thank you:  www.merriam-webster.com


So, Now that we know the definition, according to the dictionary, let’s look at what the Bible has to say about it. Continue reading “Envy and Jealousy: The Green Eyed [Twin] Monsters that (can) live in our Hearts”


Lord Of The Pain



Have you ever felt that your life is one of constant pain? That every where you go you have to face something painfully hard?  It seems to me that everywhere people are hurting. People are broken. The last few days for me, have been filled with encounters with people in agony, their souls broken, their bodies depleted. Continue reading “Lord Of The Pain”


Learning to let God operate through my weaknesses: Day 6

pinw_titleThe Jesus crucifixion process

Step five: No blame

John 19:18 (AMP)

18 There they crucified Him, and with Him two others—one on either side and Jesus between them.

Fifth, They crucified Him. Yes, they physically crucified Him, but who really crucified Him? God did. It was God’s plan, God’s will and God’s purpose. What would have happened if Jesus willingly went to the cross but complained and blamed the chief elders? Or Pilate? The victory of the cross would have been tainted. We would have seen Jesus as a victim instead of the victor. Jesus had to die in righteousness, having every opportunity to sin as we do and yet without fault. He was the perfect sacrifice. Continue reading “Learning to let God operate through my weaknesses: Day 6”


Learning to let God operate in my weaknesses: Day 5


Learning to let God operate in my weaknesses: Day 4


The Jesus crucifixion process

Step three: Cry out to God

Matthew 27:46,50

46 And about the ninth hour (three o’clock) Jesus cried with a loud voice, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?—that is, My God, My God, why have You abandoned Me [leaving Me [l]helpless, forsaking and failing Me in My need]? Continue reading “Learning to let God operate in my weaknesses: Day 4”


Learning to let God operate in my weaknesses: Day 3


The Jesus crucifixion process

Step Two: Drink no gall

Matthew 27:34

34 They offered Him wine mingled with gall to drink; but when He tasted it, He refused to drink it. Continue reading “Learning to let God operate in my weaknesses: Day 3”




Exodus 8:20

20 Then the Lord said to Moses, Rise up early in the morning and stand before Pharaoh as he comes forth to the water; and say to him, Thus says the Lord, Let My people go, that they may serve Me.


Today this is the word of God resounding in my heart.

Where in our lives are we being held in captivity? A mistaken belief? An old wound? A lack?  These things, like Pharaoh hold us captive, enslaving us but God is calling us out. There is no “Pharaoh” in our lives that is too great for our God.

Exodus 6:6-7

6 Accordingly, say to the Israelites, I am the Lord, and I will bring you out from under the burdens of the Egyptians, and I will free you from their bondage, and I will rescue you with an outstretched arm [with special and vigorous action] and by mighty acts of judgment.

And I will take you to Me for a people, and I will be to you a God; and you shall know that it is I, the Lord your God, Who brings you out from under the burdens of the Egyptians.

God is calling us out of our “Egypts” the physical places that hold us captive, i.e. food, materiel things, addictions, but also the intangible “Pharaohs” like wrong expectations, wrong thinking, and or anything that dominates our lives that is not God.  God is bringing us out from under the burdens of those “Egyptians.”  We need to be rescued. We cannot free ourselves. Only the outstretched grace, love and truth of God, in His righteous judgment can free us.

My life feels like an “Egypt” right now. All around me is lushness, abundance and prosperity, yet every day I struggle with my thoughts and they burden  my soul. We are trapped in this place but have no power to deliver ourselves and our burden just increases daily. The “Pharaoh” of our lives, at this moment is our thinking about our situation.  It dictates to us. We feel called to go and worship but our “Pharaoh” refuses to release us. Lack is a powerful task master. However, today through our prayers and fasting He opened our hearts to hear.


God is calling us to serve Him and Pharaoh Wrong Thinking cannot hold us. We are called to sacrifice……the sacrifice is giving up our “Pharaohs.”  This means giving up what seems logical and beneficial and trust the Lord. Oh how this costs my soul! How can the wilderness ever compare with Egypt? It can’t and shouldn’t because it is only the passing through place. I see the wilderness and it scares me. I only know the confines of Egypt. Yet the Wilderness is my beginning destination to serving God in freedom. I must dip my toes in the sands of change to walk out into the place God is calling me. My heart trembles at this. I must trade the known for the unknown to be set free.

Exodus 3:7-8

And the Lord said, I have surely seen the affliction of My people who are in Egypt, and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters and oppressors; for I know their sorrows and sufferings and trials.

And I have come down to deliver them out of the hand and power of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land to a land good and large, a land flowing with milk and honey [a land of plenty]—to the place of the Canaanite, the Hittite, the Amorite, the Perizzite, the Hivite, and the Jebusite.

Today, I share this word with you. The Lord has surely seen not only my affliction, but yours. He has heard your cries of the constant weight of what you face. He knows the sorrows of your heart and how you suffer.  HE COMES! HE COMES TO DELIVER YOU! Even more than that, He comes to bring you up into a place of His promise. A good place, that is large enough for you have the plenty He has for you.

Furthermore, He demands that your circumstance, your situation, you thoughts, LET YOU GO! There shall be no power in your life more powerful then He is. There shall be no more places of wrong thinking, woundedness that can dictate who you are, where you go and how you live. You are called out, You are called up, You are destined for His promise: THAT YOU MAY SERVE HIM!



John 8:36  So if the Son liberates you [makes you free men], then you are really and unquestionably free.”


A Sinner’s Confession

social_media_truth“I am a sinner, and I have cheated in (almost) every relationship I have been in.”

“Can one go upon hot coals and his/her feet not be burned? (29) So he/she who cohabits with his/her neighbor’s wife/husband [will be tortured with evil consequences and just retribution]; he/she who touches her/him shall not be innocent or go unpunished.” 

~Proverbs 6:28-29 *author added emphasis on gender

So..why am I confessing this? Well, I woke up at 0400, and for the last 2 hours and 36 minutes have fought to go back to sleep. But, the Holy Spirit was nudging me, and I finally gave in. I know this confession will likely lead to a flood of comments, but I have faith that God will use this post for good.

Cheating, IMO, is a symptom of a much larger problem. My inability to stay faithful to the commitment of the relationship(s) I was in was NOT about them-it was about me. The TRUTH of the matter is that before I became a Christian, ( I mean a “Walk the Walk” not just a “Talk the Talk” kind), I had little to no self respect or self love. If I could not respect/love myself, how could I respect/love someone else? How could I show someone I cared about something I did not feel for myself?

Like many people who cheat, I tried to convince myself what I was doing was okay. I used the “He doesn’t respect/love/cherish/etc”..excuse. I would start an argument to justify my position. I would find any fault, no matter how small, and blow it way out of proportion, to justify my wanderings. It made looking in the mirror each morning something I dreaded. I couldn’t look myself in the eyes. I felt shame, because deep down, I knew I was a really bad/terrible/unsavory/despicable/person.

Then I received Christ, and He loved me. ME!! He accepted me as I was and loved me.


That changed my heart.

Some people say “Once a cheater, always a cheater.” or “A leopard can’t change it’s spots.”


Try telling GOD that! 

In 1 Samuel, chapter 10, God gave Saul a new heart. Yep! If He can do it for Saul, who is to say He didn’t do it for me?

In the 2 relationships since I have been a believer/follower/servant, I did not cheat. Why? Because I am a new person in Christ. He loves me, I love me. Yes, I am still a sinner, but THAT sin..THAT sin..no more.  First, I have too much respect for myself to cheat. Second, I have to much respect for the man I was with to cheat. Why? I respect the commitment I had made to him. (Yes, same man, 2 different times!!) I loved him, and in many ways, still do.

The LORD helped me love myself, and forgive myself too.

Wow. It was like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. Carrying around “shame” is exhausting.

I am rid of it. I can look myself in the mirror now without the fear of shame.

If I am asked in a (hopeful) future relationship, if I have ever cheated, I will be honest and say “Yes.” I am hoping the man the Lord brings me will understand that I have faced my fears, faced my faults, taken responsibility and changed.

The Lord changed my heart.

I am Blessed!

For His Glory,




My ALL in ALL ..March 2, 2104

“Lean on, trust in and be confident in the LORD, with ALL your heart and mind, and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. (6) In ALL ways know, recognize, and acknowledge HIM, and HE will direct and make straight and plain your paths.”

My dear friends, I have been struggling with changing my eating habits for years now. Today, I was entering my food intake from yesterday, and I wrote the following in my “notes” section:

Depressed today. Things are snowballing..eating like there is no tomorrow, as if eating can solve anything!?! I am really crying as I write this. Life is just out of control…out of MY control…time to PRAY..IT is ALL in HIS control!! Praise Him!!

It was just when I wrote “Life is out of control” that my mind realized..I am NEVER in control..and honestly, why would I want to be?

Praise Him for nudging my brain in the right direction, and placing my eyes not on my problems, but HIS answers! I am faithful in my belief that the Lord has my life under control-in fact, just this week He “rescued” me from a financial mistake. To be perfectly honest, it is not that I am distrusting, it is that I forget. Yes, I forget to trust. I know many of you are just shaking your heads..lol, but, I know I will get this..I will! Because, now it is just a  matter of listening to the voices in my head and heart, and when I am headed in the wrong direction, I will confidently turn my head toward the LIGHT, the TRUTH that is JESUS!!

I think of where my own understanding and insight has taken me, and I want to shake myself! I know now that HE has it all worked out. I am unable to see the “Big Picture,” and HE does just that! ALL I have to do is ask! So, here goes:

Heavenly Father, I ask you help me with learning to eat in a more healthy way. I ask that when I am unnecessarily hungry, I stop and see if I am just feeling bored or lonely before eating food I do not need. I ask your forgiveness in making food an idol in my life, and help me fill the void of loneliness and depression with YOU, your words, your face, your place in my heart. In JESUS name, Amen


“But [even] the very hairs of your head are ALL numbered…” (Luke 12 v 7, Amplified)


No, this is not my photo, but it’s reassuring to me to know that if it was, the LORD knows exactly how many hairs I do have.

Sometimes, I feel lost in the crowd. I needlessly worry that God has so many other things and people to watch over, he won’t hear my prayers. I wonder if I have been obscured by the masses. But, in reading the TRUTH (my Bible), and knowing God keeps His word, He has assured ALL of us, that no matter how alone we may feel, He is keeping us in His view, in the palm of His mighty hand. He is watching over us, over ALL of us. ALL the time. Even in times of anxiety and fear, He knows where we are, and what we are prone to feeling. He also knows that if we have not readied ourselves with scripture, we can become afraid when bad times come upon us.

He instructs us: “And which of you by being overly anxious and troubled with cares can add a cubit to his stature or a moment [unit] of time to his age [length of his life]?” (Luke 12 v 25 amplified)

And then he reassures us in the following passage: “”Do not be seized with alarm and struck with fear, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom!” (Luke 12 v 32 amplified) And do you notice the exclamation point at the end of this verse? The LORD delights in taking care of us, and promised us His kingdom! What a blessing!

Now, isn’t it wonderful to know the LORD knows exactly the number of ALL the hairs on your head?

Love to you all,